first day of school

well…today’s my first day of school after such a long break. it felt kinda great to be able to finally step out of my house (yeah. today’s the first time i stepped out of my house after almost 2 weeks).

shermaine sorta ponned school today. haha. shermaine = my notes, homework and locker key = derek utterly lost for a day during tutorials and lectures. haha. but anyways, i would like to thank her for helping me out. really very kind of her. (:

okay..first thing in the morning…i was informed that i’m supposed to sit for my physics makeup test after school. and the thing is…i was completely unprepared! zzZ! the physics test that i’d studied for was the one last wednesday…not this MONDAY. and as everyone already knows (i hope not), i’ve very very pathetically short term memory. haha. the best thing is…i left all my physics stuff at home..and no one else brought physics notes. gg for me. lol.

okay…on the brighter note, a very HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY to AISYAH.

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(photo stolen from SHIQAH’s facebook..)

okay..from what i heard, AISYAH was parading gloriously in this fashion in the morning…until zhaopeng came into the picture and ripped the board off her. haha. okay. i sounded a little exaggerated, but theoretically, this was what happenned. haha.

alright. i’ll stop blabbering here. expect to hear from me soon! (i hope so.)

shoutbacks!

  • adeline // zzz. bad mix. haha.

Edited: Monday, 2 March 20098:53 pm

hello, goodbye

i was so pressurized and stressed for the past few days!

not just tests after tests, but also shopping woes. lol. haha. seriously, i’ve got a bad headache…

anyways, not to say i’m still not stressed…mostly due to the tons of makeup tests + tests for the next few days. haha. okay.. i realized i’m a bit of a complain king cos everyone’s also having loads of tests, not just me. haha.

alright anyways, fortunately, physics SPA went relatively alright today. no major hiccups or mistakes. thank god. i was expecting the worst. oh yeah. this one’s kinda important….my sincere apologies to lim wee for spreading chicken pox to him. i’m like…shocked and very guilty that this happenned. urgh..

on the brighter note:

a very very happy 18th birthday to both SHIQAH and NADIAH!

i’m sorry i didn’t know what to buy. but i hope u guys like the presents. (:

and about the filter paper birthday wishes…erm…i thought it would be a little different. haha. the artwork sucks…i know. i’m not really an artistic person. and this is the first time i’m making homemade birthday “cards”. haha. anyways, hope you guys enjoyed your 18th birthday! but stay tuned…cos you guys are in for another..erm..surprise. haha.

alright i’ve said far too much…i’ve got to prepare for GP essay test and econs makeup test tomorrow…and i’ve CIP work to do like….in 1 hour’s time. god knows if i still have the mental strength to prepare for the tests after CIP….

till then,
derek

Edited: Wednesday, 4 March 20096:18 pm

urghhhh…

CIP at the old folks’ home last night was quite a horror (to me at least). i was expecting to do typical chores there but it wasn’t the case at all. it’s kinda hard to describe the place….apart from it being hot and stuffy, but that’s besides the point. i was completely lost and (admittedly) frustrated there. i couldn’t fit in at all cos all the people there were barking in cantonese and hokkien. shermaine was kinda jovial and jolly towards the old folks, while i was leaning towards to overly-passive-and-dying-to leave-that-place side. chin ting was somewhere in between (more towards my side i bet). it sure wouldn’t be so bad if i could understand every word that everyone’s barking across the room. throughout the volunteer work, it felt as if i was plucked from singapore and placed in…say…ethiopia or uganda and surrounded by all the tribal people who are surrounding me…staring at me intently. lol. it’s quite a weird and dramatic illustration but that’s kinda how i felt.

well, that’s not to say i didn’t try to interact with the old folks. i tried alright! when the old folks were playing games (some simple game…like a fusion of bingo and TOTO. no point going into details though cos it’s not the main thing..), i tried to help them. but many of the old folks are FIERCE! when i approached them, they waved me away! as in not the friendly kind of wave…but the “get-lost” kind of wave. zzZ. then i remembered some old woman said “bian bian..siam” when i inched closer to her. i can understand basic hokkien alright! that phrase means..”don’t need, don’t need. go away”, but in a much more crude and coarse way. zzZ. and to top it off, i was kinda criticized and told off by some grouchy old and fat volunteer there when i tried to help her by giving out the freebies to the old people who wanted them. not pleasant at all.

i’m not an incompassionate person. but i had enough.

shoutbacks!

  • SHIQAH // #1: i was just joking. hahaha. #2: really? honestly? do u mean it..? ha..

Edited: Thursday, 5 March 20098:18 pm

randomization

yay. it feels so great that this hectic school day has finally ended….chem spa went pretty well, math was relatively alright. and i’m so, so happy that there’s no school tomorrow! after such a long hiatus, i can finally have time to enjoy many many episodes of OC tonight! (:

shoutbacks!

  • SHIQAH // haha okay. i’m much relieved now. actually i felt i shouldn’t have given the filter paper but i thought…heck it man – i’ve already made it and it doesn’t look so bad (to me). haha. (:
    “omg. i shall be a sweeet girl from tmr then. hmph.” — okay i shall be optimistic. you’ll be much nicer to everyone from tomorrow. looking forward to the brand-new and repackaged shiQah.. haha. 
  • chin ting // ya ya! haha. you shouldn’t compare with me cos i bet half of those old folks hated me. haha. i hope the children at the childcare centre will like me more…*fingers crossed*.

Edited: Tuesday, 10 March 20099:42 pm

elearning sucks

what a freaking long day!

i’ve been sitting in front of my com since 8am today till now. zzz.

chem test sucked big time. but still thanks to those who had helped me. appreciate it! (:

physics elearning tutorial was a pain in the butt.

GP was much much worse. zzz. damn demanding. urghh!

okay…all in all, everything sucked big time. i can’t wait to log off my com now. still have school tmr…dunno whether i still have the energy or mood to go.

haha.

shoutbacks!

  • AISYAH #1 // what china guy..? zzz.
  • AISYAH #2 // hahaha. funny sia!
  • AISYAH #3 // HOHO. (:

Edited: Wednesday, 11 March 20099:51 pm

Of thoughts and woes…

Okay. I came here just to post something that’s on my mind for quite a while. It’s something relatively emo by my standards, so I suggest those who dislike emo thoughts, pls do not read on.

Now and then, I’ve thought of what I’ve achieved so far, especially for the past year. All I came up with was a pretty conclusive blank. Apart from barely scrapping through test after test, and sometimes even failing drastically, my life pretty much seems pointless. Even the friends around me doesn’t seem to be real friends. There’s a point in time where I could talk about almost everything under the sun…feeling very secure even while divulging my very personal feelings to friends around me. Now, all I do is frequently argue and quarrel with the few people I’m closest to here at school. We’ve got all our differences and it has really been hard trying to bridge the gap. Very often, I feel that I’m not being me…the person that I’ve known for 18 years. It’s a really hard feeling to describe. I’m always hoping and wishing that JC life will fly past and I could forget about this whole nightmare and start afresh. Then came the realization that I’ve only been living my life in denial. There’s no escaping from this terrible phase. I’ve made my choice and no matter how much I’ve regretted how unwise it was, I’m already here and it’s too late to go back. I’ve also entertained the thought of retaining in J1 just to buy more time and be better prepared for whatever that lies ahead. This is quite a drastic and serious consideration. Most of you would feel that it’s an unwise decision but I think otherwise. But what good is there if you know you are not ready for the purpose of JC? I’ve only been holding back due to expectations – from everyone around me. It’ll also have a really negative impression as retaining is often automatically and unthinkingly equated to failure and stupidity. Everyone has a certain degree of self-esteem in them and this devious misconception and pressure of wildly baseless social scrutiny has ruined and wrecked whatever we instinctively feel could do us more good than harm. Everyone is unique and i believe no two person will learn at the same pace and in the same way. Some people will take a slightly longer time to blossom and what they really require is merely a little more time and care before they can reach this stage. This is like a personality fingerprint marking his or her individuality.

Anyways, I’m mentioning this in response to a friend’s situation. Things may not be going well for quite some time now. You’ve been trying again and again to put in effort but none of it seems to be paying off. The situation seems to be getting from bad to worse and doubts are starting to pile up…from once a molehill to now a seemingly uncontrollable mountain of mess. You feel like you’ve fallen, and don’t have the strength to pick yourself up, much less fight what that remains to be faced. You’re brutally left behind in the savage race…left to your own devices…left alone, and left helpless. Nothing is in your control now and all you want is to go back and start from scratch all over again, becoming equipped with the wisdom and experience to react better in order to permit yourself to have a much more ideal outcome. That’s roughly how I feel too, but there’s always a choice in life. No matter the outcome, think of failure not as a sign of weakness and defeat, but as a learning experience from which you can use as a stepping stone to achieve better success down the line.

I could ramble on for a thousand more words…but I’ll stop cos it’s pretty much pointless anyways. Emoing isn’t my forte, but i’m quite relieved that I feel much better letting all my emotions all out. I won’t be this emo anytime soon. Haha. (;

Edited: Monday, 16 March 200910:38 pm

(:

Today’s a good day. I feel quite satisfied. I’ll post on long overdue events (with pictures) sometime soon.

Btw… this post is just a filler. Haha.

Edited: Tuesday, 17 March 200910:23 pm

less boring stuff

alright here are the more interesting parts of my life…(this post is kinda overdue). haha.

13 March, Black Friday: after the school sports meet, we celebrated the birthdays of inthumkorean birthday babies (abigail, aisyah, shiqah, nadiah & han lyn)! (:

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i’m not sure if this celebration can be considered a success cos i didn’t really feel that satisfied myself. but i’m real glad that the birthday girls are happy & contented. haha. oh yeah. han lyn and abigail’s birthday presents were supposed to arrive in time for the celebration but there was some delivery delay (i ordered everything online, except the pizza). so i was quite pissed cos i paid extra for express shipping, and i couldn’t give them the presents formally on the celebration day itself.

anyways, just in case you guys are curious…their presents are actually personalised mugs with their photoshopped pictures printed on. my card reader isn’t working so i can’t post the actual photo of the mug..but nonetheless here are the photoshopped pictures:

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haha..i don’t know if the pictures are decent or not cos i did it in quite a hurry and sought only zhaopeng’s comments..but anyways, it’s already too late but i seriously hope that they like the mugs. (:

14 March, Saturday: econs seminar at NTU. okay this one was pretty boring. the seminar’s from 8:30AM to 5PM and jam-packed with lectures, lectures and more lectures. despite that, it’s actually relatively beneficial.

15 March, Sunday: wellness carnival CIP @ Jurong Spring CC. woke up super early in the morning. around 4:15AM if i’m not wrong. we were supposed to be there by 6:30AM. i left home early, and found out that the train service only starts at 6:15AM. shermaine was kinda stranded too, so she took a cab down, picked me up and went to clementi. the cab fare was a bomb – almost $9 from redhill station to clementi station!

okay…we waited for the rest of the ppl at the bus interchange and took a bus there. we alighted a few stops earlier cos we got the location wrong (well, not me…but the rest, i just followed them without realizing. haha.). so we walked until the next stop and realized we’re still quite a distance from the CC. so we boarded a bus again, and finally reached our destination, after 2 stops. well, that was one hell of a transport cost…

anyways, i met azimah and we joined lydia,  zakiah and jannah at the games booth. we had to play vic vac voe (simple game whereby you’ve to throw 3 soft, bouncy balls onto a game board in tic tac toe formation to win) with the ppl there. it was quite hilarious, seeing some of the senior citizens showing their super kiasu side. i could vividly remember one old woman who kept queuing up non-stop, determined to lay her hands of the prizes.

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i saw lee hsien loong in real life too! he was THIS close to me. hahaha. oh yeah…shiqah was wearing her blazer (cos she’s the main usherer) and she looked lady-like and smart. (this is to formally clarify with her that she’s not fat, weird-looking or whatnot..). haha.

after the long CIP, we went to JP for lunch….and that’s about it. it was quite an enjoyable CIP by far. (made me think why i even thought of going to the old folks’ home for CIP…). lol.

anyways, i remembered we took quite a lot of photos but these are the only ones i can find.

BTW, all the photos above (incl the birthday celebration photos) are proudly stolen from SHIQAH. (:

16 March, Monday: sorta promised jannah the day before to go to SIM for lunch (and to study). we went to this very nice place in SIM called megabites to have our lunch. the food is relatively cheap (as compared to outside prices). the carbonara reminded both shiqah and nadiah of korea..haha.

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after which, we went to king albert mac’d to study till 9+ before we left.

17 March, Tuesday: there was extra math lecture from 9am to 11am. it was completely unproductive – i didn’t manage to learn anything at all. anyways, after that, zp and i went to have pepper lunch at IMM (cos we thought we’re meeting shiqah and nadiah at JE lib). i had mistaken JE lib for JP lib! urgh! okay. so ZP PSed me and i headed west, back to JP lib. i mugged from 1PM to almost 9PM there and it was very productive. i finally understand the whole complex number thingy! haha. oh shiqah and nadiah were there earlier at around 10am so they mugged for almost 11 hours! okay anyways, i didn’t realise that i sat in the exact same spot for about 8 hours straight until i stood up and felt really giddy. but it was just for a short while. oh yeah. han lyn was there too and we left together when the lib closed. (:

shoutbacks!

  • SHIQAH // no worries…it’s probably just me overreacting. anyways, i really really hope things are going okay between you guys. and we should have more study outings! it’s much more fun to study together. (:

Edited: Wednesday, 18 March 200910:08 pm

Be kind (:

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Edited: Tuesday, 24 March 200910:04 am

a really really bad day

i need to start training hard now for pull-up and standing broad jump! i don’t want to fail napfa and end up enduring 4 months of extra bullshit in NS. ivan (new classmate from J2), who just went through BMT, was telling us how life sucked in NS. he was talking about the field camp (which is the so-called “highlight” of BMT), which was insanely torturous. it’s a 6-day camp out in the forest where they’re all stripped of important daily necessities. no bathing allowed and they’ve to sleep in self-dug trenches with earthworms, maggots and whatnot crawling all over them. disgusting!

the best part is the “toilet”. it’s just a small plot of land located 4km (if i didn’t hear wrongly) from the campsite reserved as defacation grounds. you’ve to use a shovel to dig a hole, take a dump and cover it back. according to ivan, the place stank like fuck (completely understandable). and imagine digging out other people’s shit….the flies that land on the shit before resting on your butt as you try to do your business (and you can’t bathe for 6 days…remember?)….and stepping on shit. urgh. that is so fucking disgusting man.

anyways, i woke up pretty early this morning. i slept for like…less than 3 hours in total cos i attempted to study for math test. okay anyways, i left home earlier and got held up in the train for around 10 mins, and back at queenstown for around 10 more mins. apparently, someone was hit and killed by a train at clementi, which caused this delay. i’m not sure if it’s suicide or not but whichever way, it’s still terrible. imagine the dismemberment of the body! urgh! why would anyone want to die in this way!

anyways, math block test was a disaster for me. i’m very certain i failed terribly. i’ve just earned myself a one-way ticket to US. great. 

shoutbacks!

  • yana // haha. yes! that’s because i’m friendly and nice. lol. haha. okay just ignore what i’ve just said.
  • SHIQAH // huh. but i submitted that in already. i guess you’ve got no choice! haha! =D

Edited: Tuesday, 24 March 200910:13 pm

random.

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that guy on the left is last year’s top A level student for singapore. he’s amazing. i so wish i could be like him. (:

shoutbacks!

  • yana // hahaha.
  • Zakiah // wow. shiqah’s friends are all uniting here to agree with me.
  • AISYAH // lol. cos shiqah pledged to be kinder to everyone and she wanted me to be her witness. hahaha! you should pledge to be kind too. i can be your witness! haha. just joking lah…the pledge card is a fake. shiqah wouldn’t be nice enough to pledge to be kind. haha!
  • SHIQAH // okay. maybe you’re nice sometimes. lol. but you’re still evil and that’s who you are. we (excluding including me) like you for that. (:

Edited: Monday, 30 March 20098:15 pm